I have so many things going through my head right now… I think this post is just going to be an endless brain dump.
- The Christian environment right now has put so much effort in my generation being the generation that stands up and starts being these warriors for Christ, that it frustrates me. I am happy we are getting support to be these young people of God that has this Faith that has no depth, but I look at the generations before us and I think… Isn’t time for you to take some of your own medicine?
I think about it and I go to the time when the Israelites were called out of Egypt. Because of the sins of the ancestors of the Israelites (and I am saying this broadly because my history and nitty gritty details on this is non-existent such as which sins, how long they were held captive, etc.) these people chained their children, children’s children, and future generations to, what seemed a never ending bondage. But whenever God finally heard the cries of His people, He didn’t just free the younger generations. He saved them ALL. It took the ENTIRE population to go forth, in faith and trust, and obtain the promises God was going to give to His people. The elderly, the in-betweens, the adults, the not quite yet adults, the young ones, and babes, they were all called to follow God in this depthless faith youth pastors, pastors, adults alike are now calling for amongst my generations.
It honestly makes me sad. Not many people from the older generations know what they are trying to instill in us. Are there some great pastors out there? Heck ya! My pastor/s are some of those people! But majority rules.
- This brings me to the second biggest thing…. The youth at my church make up the majority of the people, teaching the word of God to the youngest of us all. Yes, we are trying to live the way the Christian world is trying revive, but the adults in my church? It saddens me. They are but bench warmers.(Yes.. I am being very cynical at the moment) Yeah sure, they have work. But if you have enough time to get your butts to sit on the pew, bench, luxury seats, or whatever on Sundays, you have enough time to help teach your children. It isn’t our job. It isn’t our job to tell your kids about Jesus (well… It is. But the parents of these children are the pastors during the week, volunteers? They should be seen as assistants during Sundays.). It is yours. It is not our job to show what God is like, while you listen to your pastor explaining how it is important to be examples of how Jesus is to your children while you’re in an entirely different room from them. Children’s Ministry is not a childcare service. STOP ACTING LIKE IT IS and STOP warming the benches. (Okay.. Maybe I have some strong feelings on this? Huh?).
- I am tired. I think wisdom is a burden. I think holding my tongue, though it is extremely good in the long run, hurts. Most of all? I hate losing friends. I realized today. I am going to be graduating alone. A majority of my friends? They aren’t graduating yet, and my Ex, though he was going to become a “super senior” was going to have a graduation party with me. I opted out of graduating with my Highschool because the program I am in, means I don’t ever really see my graduating classmates, so why pretend I am a part of the class of 2013, if I don’t even have any connections with them? I was homeschooled up until 9th grade, so I guess the thought of graduating alone should be fine. There are churches that have graduations for homeschoolers, but again. No connections. My ex? He was the only other senior in my church. My senior year? It should be full of excitement for the end of school and beginning this new life!!! Which it does, in a lot of ways. But I am dreading the time whenever I graduate.
- I need to end this on a happy note. My goals in life right now are.
- Get my CNA license (Which I will hopefully have once I graduate. XD)
- Go to Kenya. (Has been my dream since I was 9.)
- Get my RN. (Hopefully working with mentally disabled children or children with cancer.)
- Return to Kenya.
- Get my BSN and maybe become a Nurse Practitioner. (These two are Ifish)
- And above all, follow God through it all. (Getting married? Having Kids? That is somewhere in there.)
So maybe not an endless post… My mind is still full….. Eh, I wouldn’t want to be an empty blonde, now would I?
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